March 10, 2010

OK it has come to my attention that there are many concerns with the things I am posting on this blog. I would like to address those.

I did write something that I feel was a little harsh and not exactly what I meant and I will be explaining it. Please go to February 19, 210 to see my explanation.

First I would like to mention that the only people that this blog address was given to were the girls at work and my very close friends and family that have a face book account. Now I find it pretty funny that people who enjoy the open public forum of face book would not also look at a blog in the same way.

I have a theory on this. Our brains are so intelligent that they have the capability to block out painful things in our life. Whether it is emotion or physical which pregnancy is both. I think that people forget once they have a beautiful perfect baby in their arms how hard the nine months to that point were. I am going through it now and I a have a lot of emotional highs and lows. The people that see me all the time would not even need to read this blog because they already know how I am feeling. I am not a keep it all inside and smile kind of person. I feel I do best when I share what I am going through and get feed back from peers and people who have been through the same thing.

For those of you who do not like my blog I have some advise

One: STOP READING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am not forcing you to be a part of this pregnancy, but I will continue to blog good and bad things and if you are misconstruing that then you will have to deal with it.

Two: If you have a concern then you could comment on the blog or call me and ask if everything is OK. Because truthfully it usually is by that point. Have none of you ever cried over spilled milk. I am very worried about what kind of mom I will be, if I will get my pre-pregnancy body back, will Chris and I make it through having kids. And I do not feel bad for felling that way. If any of you can honestly look back and say that you didn't have the same feelings then good for you. I am using this blog as a journal and I am willing to share it with people because I am that kind of person. If you did have those feeling but believe that they should not be shared publicly then follow advise One and STOP READING! You also might want to consider not have a face book either because people are pretty open about there feelings on there too.

I am pretty mad about this situation and ask those of you who enjoy my blog and the pictures to keep signing on and those of you who dont to tune out. As I have said before the purpose of writing this was to share what I am going through for people who have yet to have kids, people who wanted to know how I am feeling and mostly for Layla who hopefully will be pregnant one day. And instead of me shutting her out and saying that I loved being pregnant and she should to, I can give her this blog/journal and maybe she wont have to feel like no one understands what she is going through.